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wow...today started the day wif econs test....i managed to pass the mcq....but essay...totally no time to complete it...so i think still gonna flunk the test....

played a bit of bball after tt...due to maths tutorial was postponed to thursday i think.... and i made a decision to play a bloody lame game again....Dark ages...anyone wanna share char wif me?

tml...sch for bloody pw lecture...dun even feel like going...such a bloody waste of time.... 8.30 in the morning summore...think i going down late liaoz...

chalet coming...but not much $$ to spend...how? tt's bloody sad man...hopefully pple sponsor me abit here abit there...den i can make it la... so sad sia....how i wish my family's financial situation would improve...tt'll be veri great for me! no time to work for $$ this hols either... so its realli a screwed up situation...

tt's all today...hopefully some extra $$ would come my way....

wah..today's church was more tiring den sch man... imagine playing drums for 4 services... sibei siong... but well...tt's wat they call commitment... reach home ard 4...u got it right..church was from 8.30 to 3.30... 1st thing was to change into sth comfortable and sleep....until my mother had to wake me up for dinner...

woke up...ate dinner... watched CROUCHING TIGER hidden dragon...it was a surprisingly interesting show to watch... although i didn't understand wat was going on in the end... but the fight scenes were rather cool...no addition computer effects... just pple on wires flying here flying there... and they flew real fast...

no more bball for me i guess...i think i realli suck at it...so no pt playing it anymore... its back to soccer!! ole!!

tml's econs test...just read thru the elasticity of demand notes... hopefully it will be enuff to smoke thru my essay tml...
i haven passed an essay before... and it nid to pass econs...cos my math realli sucked... think no pt for me taking A lvls liddat... but well..i'll take 1 day at a time...

saturday...math test....gonna fail like fu*k...i think worst ever failure in my life... anyway...hols has started...doesn't feel like a holiday to me... just tt dun nid to go sch everiday...

good thing on the 2nd week of the hols, i haf a chalet and a church camp coming up...maybe tt'll remind me wat a holiday should feel like... S.A.T is like next sat... haven even prepare for it...dun wanna wasted $80++ and failing the bloody exam...btw...the chalet is finally gonna quench my burning desire for alcohol...wahaha...finally....

went to sunset way for dinner... wow...there's a food court there... just for background info..sunset way is just behind my house..i just haf to walk out of my block, cross the "red sea" (canal) and voila...its sunset way...the night was pretty cooling... cool breeze blowing...except tt i found the bridge tt leads to sunset way rather irritating...the bloody roof keeps making echoes when i walk and talk... bad design man...i suddenly haf a feeling today of like cycling in sunset way..maybe all the way inside...cos i nv go before... i think its a nice place...i dunno...i dun haf a bicycle btw...

so many things to do....so little time....so many things to buy...so little money.... so..tt's it for now...got ani fun programs this hols can call me... if i can afford it..i'll go!

today had GP test... not much confidence in it... may end up failing it...sian...JC life is so stress...tml got maths test and i haven study.... dun think can reach my aim of getting double digits tml... well... dun care liaoz..this yr MUST PASS A-MATHS!! the rest can slack abit...after test...went queensway wif zhanli... he went there to find his stead...1/2way den tell me...haha..but he good la..nv pang seh me for stead... lucky got another girl there wif his stead tt i noe also...so can tok abit...

i heard tt nan hua band is dead...tt's dam sad... i guess..for all seniors, to hear the band in tt state is a very sad thing... we just missed out on the gold last syf..and we(band members my batch) are like parents who pin our hopes of getting the gold on our juniors... if the band goes on like this... no hope liaoz...how to sialan miss yeo liddat? how to earn band concert?

i think i will go back one day in the hols to visit them... i nv go back for band prac before...

well...internet dc problem seemed to be solved!! hooray! last day of lessons in term 2 just finished... tml GP exam...dunno whether i'll flunk it or score...

hols are packed wif make up tutorials and extra lectures etc etc... wif mid yr exams coming right after the hols, i dun think i can do anything fun during the hols... SATS also coming and i haf no bloody idea what it is like....

I bloody feel like going to poly and study... i am flunking my maths... even though everyone else who dun take A maths is passing it... so..maybe next yr i'll go poly... this yr just bowling & A-maths....

My com just turned even more screwed up today... internet can just dc by itself at VERY regular intervals...which makes it VERY irritating!!!

anyway...today is the start of my hw catching up week...did econs essay and packed GP file today...tml got physics tutorial but nv do...so i think CT is gonna buay song again.... as always...

got confirmation tt the band i toked abt is WANG FU... and they realli got some cute songs... I WILL BUY THEIR album...

also today..got confirmation tt there is a chalet for me on the 6-8...WEE!! haha! hopefully i can get enough $$ to spend there...i wanna drink abit...maybe play abit mahjong...

the more i think abt it, the more i feel that poly is a better choice for me...i think i can onli score in the range of Cs and Ds for A lvls..which can't get me anywhere... so wat am i doin in JC? well...gotta wait for next year liaoz... so this yr just pia A maths and bowling...and if i realli can't cope, next yr den go poly... and if by then my bowling qiang? den next yr represent PJ liaoz, hopefully POLY tournaments are sometime later in the year..den represent the POLY..haha! can bowl for 4 yrs liddat!

nothing much to blog about today...so i'm just gonna tok abt some other things...

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2 new taiwanese bands appeared on the scene recently... F.I.R and the other not sure abt the name... should be called WANG FU..

F.I.R: i guess its the taiwanese imitation of jap band DO AS INFINITY or also known as D.A.I... both bands haf a female lead and 2 male musicians(d.a.i initially has 2 male musicians).. both grp names haf 3 letters...and most importantly... F.I.R's brand of music is very similar to D.A.I...in terms of style etc etc....i think many pple will agree wif me...so i wonder to myself now..since i like D.A.I's music...should i go buy F.I.R's album? its in a language i understand...

WANG FU: only heard one of their song...but its realli a hardcore rock band to me...no in terms tt it is heavy metal or linkin park kind of rock... but from that song..i instantly fell in love wif the band... just like i did wif JUDY AND MARY... that song they play on 933 now is realli fast... realli like a kid's song...but thats wat makes it so cool! i LOVE this brand of rock... and once i find their album..if it is out... i will DEFINATELY buy it when my finances allow me to...

now..i will again state on this blog tt i haf a wish to start a CHINESE ROCK BAND...perhaps even play our own compositions... tt to me will be super cool... anyone sharing the same interest may come and find me...and perhaps this dream will materialise...

well...didn't realli use the com these few days... its realli screwed up...

well..for a summary of the week...i skip almost 3 days of lessons for the bowling nationals....pj bowling had a disappointing season i guess...didn't reach targets... so...dun noe what will happen to us.. i've heard from someone tt the training is changing its strategy... not sure how reliable it is...also dun even noe wat strategies are there in bowling... i hope i can fight for my place in next yr's squad... hopefully in the top lineup...

today's FA cup final...i miss it cos the bloody coffeeshop near my house nv show tt channel...and i dun wanna walk all the way to clementi central... wat a waste... but... at least i wun miss the champions league finals...channel 5 should be showing it...

Today's an extraordinary day for me... lane marshall for bowlin nationals... so qian, lane marshall pj lane... pj bowling camp in low spirits today...didn't bowl well...hopes of anyone from pj making it to the masters series are slim... hopefully they perform extraodinarily well on friday...den if anyone from pj qualifies, i'll be there to watch on sat...

my com finally haf sound!!! wahaha... driver installed!! now can dl animes again!! so bloody happy man!! finally can get back wif the main purpose of why i use the com!! tml hope nth happen...nv do econs...lucky she not coming in tml...wahaha!! no nid to see econs tutor for 1 whole week!! sugooi!!!

next week die...gotta do lotsa catching up for my studies...although i dun mind retaining, but i dun wanna fail too badly tt i finish the academic yr learning nothing.... wanna form a study grp during the hols, so can study..and maybe play bball or bowl after tt... mid yrs coming...

okay...i think i remembered the add for wu jian dao wrongly...but i found out the correct one liaoz..

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so...today's been a crazy day for me...firstly NO LESSONS...i DID not attend a fu*ki*g lesson and tt's so bloody cool! secondly, i went to victors bowl and back to jurong east and back to victors bowl again! haha! its kinda crazy... but... it was worth goin back there to meet my good old one and only official gan jie... dun go down today...must wait veri long den can meet up again...
lastly... i didn't do any hw today although i had so much time... tml pj bowlin in afternn...so my piled up hw is gonna kill me...

well... only 1 more week of term 2 left i think... wanna meet up wif lotsa pple... wanna do alot of things... doubt i can do them all...

well well...today actually nothing much to blog again...but i still haf some thoughts tt i can share...

signed out today for the 1st time in my life...went to polyclinic..the doc like sibei kan chiong man...measure my blood pressure...den my breathing...and next moment..i'm queueing for my drugs... fast paced freakin crowded place...

no lessons for me tml...gonna go watch bowlin nationals... but today...just found out sth realli incredible abt pj... i guess its the only sch which allow students to go sch in 1/2 U becos the weather is too hot... absolutely INCREDIBLE...

oh yea..my junior told me quite a few days ago tt she wans me to add a tag board so pple can tag it... but i'm so freaking lazy to do it...and i dun noe how to do it...and my com is so screwed up right now tt i dun wanna noe how to do it... SO... if anyone wanna help me do it(do it for me) can just msg me on msn...

btw...a great parody of infernal affairs...in hokkien though...
ask me on msn for the url...

okay...formatted my com...but still think its rather screwed up...haven install my sound driver yet...so no sound for me at the moment... as my sister lost the hp reboot disk, tt's y all my drivers are gone! and tt's y i demoted from XP to windows 2k... but well...at least my com is much faster now...no spyware..i hope at the moment... no viruses yet too... sch tml... onli did gp essay...wonder wat's gonna happen to me... hopefully nothing... nothing much to blog today...so i'll stop here...

today...nothing much special in sch...onli got back maths test results...flunked them until veri jialat... seems like i haf to work real hard if i dun wanna retain man...sian...

aniwaz...nowadays i seem to write three letters whenever i am bored during lectures... these 3 letters used to mean alot to me...now...i'm not so sure...but i wonder y i subconsciously write them...without thinking at all... does this mean these 3 letters still mean alot to me although i dun feel it? its kinda scary to me...cos...i dun even know wat i'm thinking...

next week i'm goin to miss alot of lessons...and i've figured...maybe its not a good thing after all...mid yrs are coming..and tt gives me extra work to catch up with...

today...nothing special in sch...only used my old backpack again... feels SOOO GOOD!! haha! sling bags are so dam bloody freaking heavy....

btw..advertisement... anyone who plays the guitar wanna perform wif me and a few frens for mother tongue day?? we need a guitarist!! bassists welcomed too!! chinese songs btw...our mt is chinese...

goin back to main topic...went to cut my hair today...dun think it made much diff anyway...onli abit shorter i guess... well... hols are comin...hope haf some chalet or wat...i WANNA DRINK!!

today was a great day...
did napfa in sch...gonna get bronze cos cannot meet that illusionary 5 pull ups.... went late for chinese becos of napfa...gp lesson was also quite crap..just went for the air con... so.. conclusion...today's sch was realli crap...

after sch...went to victor's bowl for some lane marshall briefing... WTF man..the bus ride there was longer den the bloody briefing!! and wat happens after tt? we all go home... GREAT... luckily...being enthu bowling and havin missed 3 weeks of training...we went bowlin on our own... it was rather fun... kept crapping there.... didn't score well though....long way to go before i can represent pj for tournaments...

tml's gonna be hell... nv do hw..dun even noe wat hw is there... live a day as it is...

2 word summarizes my day today...mathematical induction...
had a MI quiz which i screwed...and went home after...slept...and did the fu*king MI tutorial for 2hrs...copyin solutions only... its really fu*ked up man...

tml still must pia 4 chinese compre...gonna be fu*ked up too....jc work life sux man.... lifeless in fact...

okay...today..mother's day... went to a new jap restaurant in clementi...food's not bad...and its dam cheap...so tt makes it a rather good restaurant...

tml's gonna be hell for me...i nv do ALL my hw...well... hope most teachers sick tml... den buy me 1 day to clear some of my debts... well...a fren added me to frenster today...saw a pic...omg...change so much... girls do change alot when they move on from sec sch to jc or any other higher education... and most of the time, its for the better... tt's y i chose JC instead of poly....

i wonder now...are there any musicians who like to jam chinese songs in pj? i wanna jam wu zhuang by mayday and ting bu dao the mayday version...

here's a quick summary of wat i did today...it should be in chrnological order...i hope i remember wat i did correctly...

maths test(shiok man!! ask any j1 who takes math)....bball...lunch...movie(blood brothers)..home...granny house 4 dinner... home..

blood brothers is a great movie! although no chio actresses to look at in the show..but storyline is great! a great twist in the end of the show... shall not be a spoiler and gif the show away...just say tt a parallel storyline is a really really cool concept... also...i may sound biased cos i really really love triad movies... not those brainless ones which are filled wif meaningless fighting...but those type that u watch and you dun understand..and it makes you go on thinking, tryin to digest its meaning even after the lights are turned on again...

tml maths common test...only goal is to not fail miserably...today..nothin much to tok abt...a rather normal friday at sch...

thoughts? well..lots to tok abt... suddenly i thought abt the 2 meis i haf in sec sch... wondered y did i ever had the idea to go get a mei? but well... nv regretted... they've provided me wif lotsa fun & joy... but too bad..mostly was behind a media... aniwaz..main pt today is i haf failed in holding on to sth... sometimes when u come across something u like very much and the frequency decreases, u seem to like it less... although at 1 period of time..u thought u could hold on to it for a very very very long time...

sounds nonsensical? well, u don't haf to understand it...i'm just blabbering out watever thoughts tt come to my mind... so basically u see that my thoughts dun link... am i gonna stop here? NO!...so today's post is gonna be long...

JC life has changed me... just a few mths ago..i was like a fu*king despo, wanting to haf a stead... now...i ask myself.. why do i fu*kin need a girlfriend for? i haf no $$, no time... i dun wanna pat thor online or via sms... or maybe this thought is just a phobia cos i nv had success in this area of my life before...

okay...enough of this nonsense...i think this is caused by tml's test...

well...today's a great day for me! y? i didnt go to sch! needed a break... went bowling in the afternoon by myself... pretty shiok time there... tml mcq test...nv touch econs.. but i think i should be able to scrape thru it... tutor so enthu...sure has some positive economic effect on me... did partial fractions for 1 1/2 hr...tt's a record...and i didn't even realised it until i realised tt news on channel 8 is over! guess this topic shudn't trouble too much on sat's test...and this leaves me wif binomial which i am clueless abt...

today...nth much to say abt sch...just tt it was dam boring...

well moving on... i thought of watching the cd-pro II remix of the Infernal Affairs(wu jian dao)..but i forgot the link!! so..if any of u noes the webby..kindly msg me on messenger... its a series of rather hilarious fu*ked up clips of the show, redubbed in hokkien.... so..if any of u who understands hokkien and nid some form of relaxation...tt's a good thing to do...

abt tests...i remembered a phrase from an anime i watched, Avenger, where the protagonist always say "watashiwa kuroshitemiru"(spellin no guarantee, but do try to get the phonics) which means try to kill me... i haf decided to adopt this attitude of not fearing tests...i now haf a feelin of dang wo ze si( those who block my way dies). but all this are in the irony of me onli putting in a little effort in my studies... but i guess, this is the onli attitude i can adopt for now...until the common tests make me eat all that i just typed back..imagine..its just like tests haf tied my hands using a rope and pushin me off a cliff. the only thing keeping me from falling is the rope which is gripping my hand like a vice... den tt bastard tests ask me, "do u gif up?!" tt was basically the imagery? in my mind...

today...rather screwed up.... physics test...i think i only haf a glimmer of hope to pass... so fu*king hard man... i skip until the last question den had no choice but to attempt some questions...

mom seems to be very concerned wif my tests... force me to sit down wif my sis for abit of binomial... but i just can't do any studyin today man... just feel very lazy today... so tired...

i begin to wonder the very cliche question of what am i doin wif my life.... workload seems to haf increased... everythin is so hard... i'm like diggin my own grave..piling up work and waiting for the weight to squish me to death....

i dun haf the solutions to my problems this time...and it realli scares me... in the past, although i may speak of very negative things like "fail la, confirm die..." but deep down inside of me, i know nothin bad will happen, at most i get mediocre results... but this time... i don't have the confidence within me... i'm like living each day as it is..wif no hope or aspirations for tml(academic wise)...

1 last thing troubled me today... friday nights..where should i spend it? i haf church commitments on that day...but i realli wanna play bball in sch, cos most frens i noe play bball in sch at the same time... its like the only chance for me to play ball..but morally, i should be doin my duties in church...

well..i guess this is enough..i think i sound realli fu*ked up today.... i dun feel me today...

i'll break from the style i used on sat cos today got quite alot to write...

today... mornin saw the competition squad bowlers rolling their balls into sch...rather envious...wished i could be one of them rollin my balls(bowlin balls)... but well... no training this wk again...it sux... dam this PCC....g courses..... make my training irrelevant for a noob bowler like me... aniwaz...lauren's greetin to me seems a little diff from usual...her waves to me seems more enthusiastic than usual... a little amused abt it..but well.. i guess its a gd thing... it adds a little colour to a gray day in sch - a big wave and a smile from ear to ear...

sch was rather stressful today.... maths... WTF is binomial? its a rather fu*ked up thing which i dun even understand the formula...wat's more abt applying it.... Physics test tml..and i onli studied 30 mins for it..couldn't carry on...hopefully it'll do the trick tml... econs? teacher kinda too enthu for me...demandin on the workload...who the fu*k writes explanations & reasonings down when they do econs MCQ? fu*k it man! what takes 15 mins to do now takes an hr....

went to west mall again after sch... wanted to see the murder site... but was utterly disappointed... No bloodstains, no corpses(there shudn't be), no errie feelin, no NOTHING!! dammit man..singapore is so bloody efficient..i dun get to see anything there..business as usual at sports link... seems like nothin happened at all? wtf man! someone just got killed there!! stabbed! right in broad daylight! and this is what happens only 2 days later!! total oblivion to the event...

hmm...i'll try this new style of writin blog entries...maybe it'll make my entries easier to read. so here goes.....

went bp bowling... tot i played rather well..saw senior there too..felt stressed...went home...planned to study...procrastinated...slept..woke up for dinner...slacked...

news today...west mall murder case...rather shockin story...u dun get a murder case everyday here in sg... and its so near home...so u can relate to it real well... broad daylight summore... considering whether to go & see the site on monday... wonder if they've cleaned it up by then...

gotta pick up on my studyin real soon..